Mamamontezz's Mental Rumpus Room

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Good sleep last night. It came easily, gently for a change, without being actively pursued to exhaustion. And when it arrived it was a restful sleep that recharged and restored all aspects, body, mind, soul, and even a few other things that I had forgotten could use benefits of a peaceful sleep.

Restful, tender sleep hasn't come easily to me in recent memory. It hasn't been a part of my life for many months. I can almost tell you the days that my mental or emotional gymnastics didn't keep me up, and they almost all lead back to days when I was able to open-up and share a piece of my heart or my soul, or even my womanhood. Sometimes it has been shared over the telephone.

That something as insignificant in our everyday lives as a telephone could bring satisfaction and fulfilment to a person's psyche is fascinating and frightening simultaneously. I'm amazed that I will share things with a person over the phone within very few minutes of dialing that I would not have revealed in person for hours, days, weeks, maybe even ever. But the safety of that thin little wire and tinny speaker gives me a courage, albeit probably a false one.

Sadly, I know I may never see face to face the person with whom I have had a humorous, touching, or arousing conversation over the phone. I may never have the opportunity to personally share the intimacy that we shared in my soft bed in a darkened room, alone but for the touch of a piece of electronics pressed against my ear. But the verbal intimacy we did have was sweet and genuine and felt very, very real.

It sent away my demons for just a little while and gave me a delicious little thrill. Hearing my name said with that soft accent sent a little charge of electricity through my belly and into the darkness.

And it gave me enough peace with myself that I was able to rest peacefully for a few hours. I was reminded that I was still a woman, still desirable, still able to... Well, that's for an email, not here.

I can only hope that my phone will ring. Soon. I enjoyed myself immensely.

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Posted by Mamamontezz at August 19, 2004 08:28 AM